Heart warming poem...Haaaayyyy

somewhere i have never travelled
-- e. e. cummings

somewhere i have never travelled, gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands

I love this poem so much!Ü

WORSE COMES TO WORST

A lot of bad things happened that bad is not the right term anymore....(walang sense)
Worse comes to worst i will feel differently about you.
Worse comes to worst i will be soooo...confused on how we are and what we are.
Worse comes to worst no one will understand what i'm going through.
Worse comes to worst everybody will hate me for what i am doing.
Worse comes to worst i will still be firm with what i know is ryt and how i feel.
Worse comes to worst i will lose some friends along the way.
Worse comes to worst we can no longer be friends but I will still care for you.
Worse comes to worst we may never see each other but i will still long for you.
Worse comes to worst i will try to go on with my life without anyone helping me.
Worse comes to worst i will move on and never return to how i was before.
Worse comes to worst i will just forget everything.
Worse comes to worst i will be numb.

But one thing is definite and the best thing will happen...
Along the way i learned a lot.
Along the way i met a lot of people.
Along the way new friendships are formed
Along the way i rediscovered myself.
Along the way i am reformed.
Along the way i found myself again.

Now I am a new person...ready to take the challenges again, stronger than ever, more independent than ever, more caring than ever.

I just learned to love myself more now.

Disclaimer

Along the way, a friend and I realized that the initials of my imaginary boyfriend (IBF)so happened to be exactly the same as one of our close friend. This is just to clear that it is just a coincidence. hehehehe...I may sound defensive but that's the total truth.

Who is MAGS?

Dahil loser ako for not having a boyfriend in my entire life until the moment, napagkasunduan namin ng friend kong si Monti na gumawa ng aking imaginary boyfiend. Ang masaya sa pagkakaroon ng imaginary boyfriend e magagawa mo ang kung anuman sa kanya....uuuuyyy may ibang iniisip...hehehehehe...
Kidding aside, MAGS is my ideal man, starting with the name, Miguel Antonio Gonzalo Saavedra. He's tall with fair complexion, an Atenean, at least I imagined him to be one with good Philo and Theo background and smart. He's nice, sweet, thoughtful, romantic and with great sense of humor. Honey is our term of endearment. hahahahahaha...I sound soooo loser already...therefore I should stop now....
So far that's how I imagined him...

mga nagawa, hindi nagawa, at balak gawin

Inspired by Chi...Thanks girl! She's also my new friend.

(x) snuck out of the house
( ) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides the united states (Ni hao)
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas (during a camp)
( ) kissed a stranger
( ) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs
(x) Had alcohol
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator (masaya yun kung someone special kasama mo)
( ) swore at your parents
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
( ) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving (kinda scary)
( ) broken a bone
( ) been high
(x) skinny-dipped (in the middle of the night...grabe ang lamiiiiggg)
(x) skipped school [cut class]
( ) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour (di ko yata kaya yun)
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
( ) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the opposite sex (Baby Brother ko...hehehehe...ANG LOSER KO!)
(x) kissed a member of the same sex [beso lng]
( ) crashed into a friend's car (don't have a car yet and i don't know how to drive)
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) been dumped ( :(so much love to give but no one to give it to)
( ) shoplifted (nakakatakot)
( ) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex (pero not so serious...tibo na ba ako?)
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back [lagi namang ganyan eh. haaaay.]
( ) stolen something from your job (takot akong masesante)
(x) gone on a blind date (after a lot of trials wala pa ring successful)
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
(x) slept with a co-worker (tulog lang talaga hehehehe...)
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
( ) seen someone die
(x) had a close friend die
( ) been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day (sama ako sa road trip ni cla...tara Nueva!)
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi (yummy)
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
(x) graduated college (haaayyy...buti nalang nag Ateneo ako)
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
( ) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself (masakit)
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now...(sooooo much)

Checklist of Things I want to do with MAGS

Start up Level
( )walk together
( )jogging or going to the gym
( )Watch movie
( )Eat dinner

Next Level
( )Eat lunch
( )hear mass
( )Overnight
( )buy groceries

Final Level
( )Go on vacation
( )Eat breakfast
( )Walk by the sea shore
( )Shop clothes