Bitter sweet :p

I was cleaning my inbox this morning and found this poem (or is this a prose?Ü).
This was sent to me by a very dear friend 2 valentine's day ago.
Good for her she is already happily attached right now. I wish her wellÜ.

I hope...
I pray...

someday..

I'll wait...
I'll be patient...

I will...
I believe...


THE ONE THAT GOD HAS PREPARED FOR ME

I am wondering at this very minute if you are
thinking of me, if like me, you are wondering
what is taking us so long to find each other. Many
times I thought I finally found you only to be
disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I
get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you.

I am thinking of how we will meet, would it be
as romantic as the ones I have seen in movies? Or
is it possible that I have known you all my life but
we have yet to realize that we are meant for each
other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you
are the only one who has the answers to all my questions.

Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really
known "love". I do not have the answer to that
question either but I believe that, more often than not,
we will never really know what love is until we
find that right person.... and since I have not found
you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is!

You just don't know how often I dream of finally
knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this
very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep
me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by
your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you
manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways!

I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God
will help me recognize you when the right time comes.
I think of all the pain that I have gone through
in the past and of how much I have cried since the
day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that
I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the
beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you.

In my mind and in my heart I know that
you are worth all that pain and sacrifice.
After all, the tears have become a part of my
life and I believe that they are slowly washing away
my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect
in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU!

I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well.
I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey.
But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here...
patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other
I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.
At night, I would look out my window and stare
at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are
also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a
silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens
above thinking that in time they would reach you.

And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and
believe that you are on your way and that you are
longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall
asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are
always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is
the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to
tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you
would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love.

And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up
and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon
enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and
once again I am assured that you are worth the wait.
And when that time comes, everything will fall into its
place, just as I had imagined, just as I had
thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be!

By then, I would simply look back and smile at all
that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and
amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very
thankful because they all led me to you!
In the meantime, take care of yourself for me.

Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go.
Believe in your heart that we will find each other
no matter what happens. God has planned the
course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't
worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to
it that all the roads, no matter which one you
choose to follow, lead to me .

Until Then!